The ruling passion, be it what it will,

the ruling passion conquers reason still.

-Alexander Pope

the existence of 'us'.
not you.
but me, me and me.
there exist an infinite number of me.
as many as there are you.

in each pair of eyes,
there is a different me.
in each world of ours,
there are many different mes.

if it is in my nature to to question everyone of us
it would never end.
but that just is.
how does she see me?
how does he see me?
how do they see me?
how do i see me?

i just have to learn to love ourselves.
me.

there is no time to ponder.

so many dreams...
o so many dreams...
how weird...how wonderful...
well was it?

no.

nightmare upon nightmare upon nightmare
a wandering mind by nature
a dreamer by day.
it all fell on me one single night.
hidden fears
daily worries
hell on earth.

they were so real
so vividly real.
back to reality
i breathe a sigh.

but they are real.
they precurse the future.
and they be-curse my reality.

yet i must dream on.

do i want to know?

or do i not want to know?

cant live and ignore after all.

life isnt all sunshines and rainbows.

it should be told when the moment is right.

it should be known when the time is ripe.

its about acknowledging who we really are

its about accepting each other as all that we are.

thus in sharing
our bond is therefore
further strengthened.
and in knowing
trust is therefore
further binding.

sometimes, the nights pass by easily.
sometimes, the nights dont go easy on me.

all i have, are the dreams.
of you i dream...

every.

single.

night.

Happy Valentine's Day.

speaking of absolute...

never have i been so happy
never would i feel so empty
never have i felt so sad
never would i feel so bad.

and i couldnt do it either.

its bearable.
its bearable....
i tell myself.

not having you around
not having you next to me.

living a day at a time
and never counting what lies ahead.
thats the way, yes.

everything will be fine
i tell myself.
i can do it
i tell myself.

and i cant deny that
i miss you so, so much.

in my dreams i revel.

dreaming of a smile i so long to see
dreaming of those cheeks i so want ot kiss
dreaming of those eyes...those watery eyes...

i could almost smell the scent
i could almost taste the sweetness
i could almost reach out an feel the presence

and i weep when i wake
but i smile when i sleep.

i shall await the nocturne all day
till i can close my eyes and smile away
till i can close my eyes...
and dream of you...
like ihad gone insane.